Dreams – All Change

Citrine CrossI’ve been getting a whole heap out of my system over on my other blog, The Crazy Crone – Living a Wild & Adventurous Life, which has led not only to working with different crystals but also to having some very powerful dreams heralding life changes.

Dreams first.  The night before last I dreamed I was on a largish aircraft with bright light in the cabin.  Suddenly the plane swung to the right but then kept going quite smoothly. I can’t remember all the details except I was trying to talk to a man who disappeared and when I followed him we had landed very quietly and smoothly, with the steps leading down to the runway already in place.

Last night I dreamed that I was in a night club or pub, with a boyfriend much younger than me who I really wasn’t very interested in. I’ve had a lot of dreams where I’m going to marry or have a relationship with a man much younger than me and, even though I’ve told them I’m 67 and they’re usually in their late ‘twenties, they haven’t seemed to worry about the age difference. Anyway, the young man in this dream walked out and as I turned around I found myself face to face with a man whom I’ve sought in many, many dreams. Originally we were deeply in love but somehow I spoiled the relationship. And since that initial dream, years ago, I’ve had many dreams where I’ve searched  for this man and last night I found him, to my joy.  He too was joyous at our reunion and we hugged each other with great love and delight at finding each other again.

For me, the first dream means I’ve re-c0nnected with my earthed, practical side,  and done so pretty smoothly and with ease.  I’ve found that I’m feeling more practical, I’m finishing projects and tidying up behind myself, whereas previously I’d flit from one project to another or leave stuff lying around which drives my ever-so-tidy husband absolutely nutso.

The second dream is me reconnecting with my male side, the mature side rather than the immature side represented by the younger male figures. This mature side has been missing in action for a very long time indeed.  I have always been rather fearful of male energies, likely because of my dysfunctional relationship with  my father.  So all in all, I’m feeling very balanced and pretty chipper tonight.

Yesterday, while I was ploughing through my childhood and feeling quite emotional and disturbed, I worked with a large sheet, elestial quartz.  I was having a squizz through my crystals when this one drew my attention but I resisted at first as it’s quite large – 3″ x 2″ (7.5 x 5.5cms). But nevertheless the pull was there so I knuckled under and created a wire wrap for it. It felt as if this crystal was allowing me to access memories with ease and deal with the emotions which arose as I was writing the posts.

This afternoon, as I finished the last of my posts in this series,  I suddenly felt incredibly happy and light, and felt the urge to wear my citrine cross pendant. There’s a story behind this. When I lived in Boonah, south-east Queensland, I was with my friend when I found a lovely silver and turquoise squash blossom necklace.  It was from Canada and had been a gift to a woman who didn’t like it and placed it in the shop to sell.  It cost $25 but I was pretty broke at the time. However, my father was in hospital detoxing and generally creating mayhem, I was very upset and stressed, and my friend told me to buy the necklace because I needed it to handle the stress.

So I did. The shop owner told me someone else liked it and had said they’d return to buy it but had never come back. So it was first come, first served. A little later I had a crystal stall in the local market and got talking to a lady who was complaining she’d wanted a squash blossom necklace in the antique shop behind us but someone else had bought it before her. Me. I dithered but decided to confess it was me and waited for a nasty comment. But instead the woman looked at me thoughtfully and said: “Well, my bad luck. But I’ve just bought a citrine and silver cross at auction, got home and wondered why I’d bought it. But now I look at you and I  think maybe it’s meant for you. Are you interested – it’s $70?”  This was back in 2001 so $70 was worth a lot in those days. Well, hell, how can I turn down an invitation to look at a citrine pendant?  Genuine citrine too. So I arranged to meet this lady and, of course, fell in love with the pendant. Genuine citrine is very pale gold and expensive, while the dark brown “citrine” you see in shops is burned amethyst which is why it’s so cheap.  As for the $70 price tag, I made that amount at the market so decided it was definitely meant to be mine. And this afternoon I felt the urge to wear it again because it feels I’ve turned a corner and am embarking on a very new part of my life, with this citrine cross providing celebratory energies.

To wind up, I’m including Redemption Song, by Ziggy Marley with The Chieftains, what a combination, eh?

And if you want to read my posts on sorting out my dysfunctional relationship with my father, the links are:

Canyons of My Mind (40)

Canyons of My Mind (41)

Canyons of My Mind – Alcoholism (42a)

Ancestral Healing

Winding Up

Elestial sheet quartz
Elestial sheet quartz
Sheet Elestial Quartz 1
Elestial sheet quartz pendant






Shamanic Studio

I’m re-connecting with the way I’m meant to work and create in this life so here are photos of my revamped studio which reflect this:

Crystal display, round table
I’ve had quite a few stones mixed up in a couple of bowls but felt the need to spread them out to access their individual energies.
Shamanic Sanctuary Table 1
Sanctuary Table – the bowl at the back contains dried sage and rose petals; and various feathers I’ve collected over the years. Around the centre flower and spider pendant are amphibole quartz (which I absolutely love), with a chryscolla stone at the front; two spheres of girasol and ruby; and two wands of herkimer diamond (pink), and a glass wand filled with amethyst and rose quartz chips, a clear quartz crystal point; and a rose quartz sphere; and two natural clear quartz wands either side of the amphibole quartz stones.
Shamanic Wall
On the wall are my artwork “Shaman”, two bags containing rune stones I created; a bag containing elements from the croning ritual I attended in April 2002; my large rattle; my spider drum, my Tibetan cymbals, my smaller rattle, my drum beater, and a wooden mala. On the sanctuary table at the bottom are an orange glass shape for creativity, a Buddha figurine; a teddy bear with “Love Me”on the front, a lavender quartz rock; witches finger quartz points; and an amethyst Purple Flame point from the North Territory, Australia. In the centre is my Tibetan singing bowl.
Rattle with wire hanger
This is my large rattle with the wire hanger I created for it today. I’d been thinking of leather or ribbon, until I realised I have some copper coloured wire which is ideal for the earthiness of this rattle.
Rattle - close-up of hanger
This is a close-up of the wire wrap.


Growth Interference Quartz

Growth Interference Quartz Pendant

I worked on a wire wrap for another quartz pendant today – this one is Growth Interference Quartz.  I had a dream about this quartz years ago when I lived in the UK, got a clear image in my sleep, and when I opened up on the crystal section of eBay in the US, there was this quartz staring back at me. And I won the auction – but I have to say that the way I work with crystal auctions on eBay is that, if no one has bid, I’ll put in a bid. But if someone else has already placed a bid, I won’t compete as I reckon they got their moniker and energy on it first.

I feel this quartz is melting the barriers to growth which I have blocked, subconsciously, and of which I have now become aware.  I intend to write about this in more detail tomorrow on my other blog Mo’s Book as Blog.

All this was sparked off by a post on the blog: Behind the White Coat, which is run by a physician in the United States who really writes the most interesting material and shows how much she cares about her patients. In this case, she talked of information linking weight challenges with childhood physical, mental, emotional or sexual abuse. It has opened up a can of worms for me in relation to the bullying, control and emotional abuse I got from my father all of my life. I was going to write “in my childhood” but I realised that’s not true – I had a dysfunctional relationship with my father right through until he died.

As for the other wire wrap pendants I’ve created, for me the Kyanite helps align my internal energy lines; the Witches finger quartz pendant re-connects me with cosmic energies and illuminates the songlines we each carry energetically within our spiritual memories; the Scolecite helps alleviate the pain of fibromyalgia; the Aquamarine helps in emotional healing; and the Mangano Calcite reminds me to treat myself with TLC. I also want to make clear that, while crystals can help in energy healing, they don’t replace conventional medical treatment when it’s needed. For example, when I broke my leg and ankle, I needed medical treatment to set the broken and splintered bones straight away, as well as intravenous antibiotic treatment as I went into hospital with a raging infection   Use your intelligence when working in the metaphysical field!

I want to make it clear that the way I work with crystals is to tune into them to see what each has to offer, rather than read up fixed descriptions in crystal books.  While there may be a generic quality in crystals, such as rose quartz for love, each facet of rose quartz offers a unique quality to the person picking that stone.  I came to this conclusion after selling crystals at markets in Queensland – you could have a whole bowl of amethyst or rose quartz or clear quartz, and people would fish around until they’d emerge triumphant with the one stone they felt was for them.

Righto – off to my next blog where I’m going to post photos of my re-vamped studio!


In Praise of Rain and Roses

In praise of rain and rosesIn 1994, after both living in Perth, Western Australia, for 20+ years, we suddenly uprooted and moved to Queensland.  We bought a house in S-E Queensland, on a 1-acre block halfway up Mt French, just outside of a township called Boonah.  We didn’t realise it but we had arrived during a drought.  Winters in Queensland are dry and sunny and we moved in at the beginning of October when summer storms were starting to move through and fill our rain tanks – we had no piped water, only a huge, concrete water tank and a much smaller galvanised steel tank.

Come the next summer, there was no rain – just endless days of hot sun and bright blue skies.  It sounds great but you get sick of it. And you get even sicker of it as you watch the water in your tanks get lower and lower.  You learn to be waterwise and conserve this precious commodity – never to let a precious drop of water be wasted.

Here in North Cyprus, rain is similarly a somewhat sporadic affair.  We get heavy bursts of rain, mainly in late December through to February, but the rest of the year is usually very dry, back to the endless sunshine and clear, blue skies.  Last summer rainfall was very low, by mid-summer the island was in drought and up until recently we had water rationing, the first time since we’ve been here.

However, over the past few weeks, Mother Nature has seen fit to send us rain, rain, storms and more rain. The paddock beside us is bright green, a far cry from the parched landscape of summer, and also green and rich much earlier than last year when the paddock managed a stingy green in January and February.

This afternoon I wandered into the garden to find our Apothecary’s Rose nearly fully open with raindrops glistening on its ruby petals. So off I trotted to get my sturdy camera and here’s the result – an adoration of my Apothecary’s Rose which I love because it’s got an ancient heritage and is native to this region. And more adoration of the wet stuff which keeps falling from the sky and soaking into our soil so we are greening up and starting to look somewhat lush and luscious.

I do realise that it is ironic to be banging on about how great rain is when other people around the world are experiencing floods and hardship from an excess of water. But I guess you can only deal with your own experiences – and I know that, for me, rain is something I value and never take for granted.


Mountain Magic

Mountain Magic

I am re-connecting with my relationship with rocks and crystals.  I have been making wire wraps for various stones in my care, and the above image is created from a photo I took yesterday of the sun shining onto the Besparmak Mountains.

For me, there is an energy and power in mountains – I can see faces, images and energetic beings. The above is my inner image of the magic of mountains, so often overlooked because we’re taught to see rocks, mountains and stones as lifeless things to be used, without realising how we are upsetting the balance in our relationship with the planet which supports and nurtures us.

It’s my belief that the rise in the popularity of crystal healing and the availability of a wide-ranging array of crystals, rocks and stones is a shamanic calling from these earth energies to humanity to recall our connection with the natural world and our responsibility to co-create with the energies that surround us.

When we work with crystal healing, we are not simply healing ourselves, we are aligning ourselves with the planet to effect healing on the wider world around us.  In the words of Rachel Pollack, in her book on her Tarot deck, The Shining Tribe: “To truly Know Stone means to transcend the illusion of a separation  between Spirit and the material world.”


Sun over Besparmak Mtns 1
Original photo of sunlight over Besparmak Mountains as storm clouds have moved to the east.


Winter Solstice Greetings

Tree of Dancing LightFor once in my life I have remembered to honour the Winter Solstice – this is a revamped version of my original artwork: Tree of Dancing Light.

I wish you a good life at the Winter Solstice, much creativity in the months ahead, and the knowledge that you are a wonderful being just as you are.

May love surround you, bless you and inspire you.

And as you wake up each day, may you see yourself surrounded by showers of glittery blessings.