I was going through my photo files yesterday and came across a digital art piece I’d mis-filed called “Forgiveness”. It really didn’t look quite finished so I moved it to my digital art folder and worked on it today.
I found it interesting that I re-discovered this painting as I’ve had a very interesting experience since I wrote on my book blog about my experiences with fibromyalgia and my father’s descent into rampant alcoholism (http://thecrazycrone.com/2014/02/16/fibro-follies-1-25/). For some reason, now that I’ve spoken publicly about a very difficult time and my relationship with my father, I feel much calmer, more at peace and I’ve lost the anger bottled up inside me.
Forgiveness is a tricky subject. I often see people misunderstand this issue as condoning someone’s actions if you forgive them. Actually, you are freeing yourself up from past troubles or injustices, as in forgiving someone you don’t condone what they’ve done, you simply let go of the bitterness in your own heart. It heals you. The other person still has to deal with the action they undertook. I know I mentioned “forgiveness” to a lady in a Tarot reading and I thought she was going to brain me when I mentioned the unmentionable. I also read how someone had stones with various words engraved on them, and the one that was seldom picked by people fossicking through the stones.
How you handle forgiveness is an individual matter, but I feel like I’ve finally managed to forgive my father for the difficult relationship we had in our lives together, it’s as if the bitterness has suddenly dissolved. I found that creating the digital image of “Forgiveness” was as if I’d had a window to the past where I could look back, not with anger, but with compassion and love. I hope this image helps you if you have issues of forgiveness in your life.